In an interview with his partner Jeremiah Madrazo on Orsai shopits publisher, writer and screenwriter Hernan Casciari He told, with an open heart, how his relationship with drugs was during his youth. And how did you manage to leave them after having experienced extreme situations in which he even thought about committing suicide.
“Today I couldn’t do what I did anymore. I get goosebumps just thinking about that possibility.”Casciari was sincere in one of the long speeches. “I was spending twenty years without stopping. It was my way of being,” he acknowledged before going deep into telling how he overcame that moment.
It was then that his interviewer pointed out the importance of their parents for him to make the decision to change his life. “How do you know? I didn’t write this about my parents anywhere. It was the opening day of the 1992 Barcelona Olympic Games,” he recalled.
Casciari during the interview with Jeremías Madrazo.
“That day I bought a ten-gram market chalk with string that wasn’t mine. I stole it from my job. With the very strange idea of thinking that this plaster would last me two weeks, that I was going to Buenos Aires to the house of a suicidal friend, named Cucaña, to look for work and pay off my debts. I remember the chalk was delicious, it smelled like a Bolivian donkey, “he said wryly.
“That night I went to the house of another friend who then committed suicide too, with the intention of having a drink and keeping most of the rest to spend those two weeks in Buenos Aires. What happened? We drank it all that same night. We also bought two more newspapers, “he said, saying he was out of money.
“At some point in the morning I go home on my motorbike and on the street my motorbike breaks down. There were nearly twenty blocks that I couldn’t walk. I had to go with the bike in tow, yellow for how hard it was, sweaty. At that moment I realized that I had nothing. And that if I didn’t go to Buenos Aires, I had to go back to work in the place where I had stolen the money “
“I was 21 and on returning home I decided I had to kill myself. I was so hard that in my head that was the only real solution. An asshole, but I was about to cut my veins. I remember it was like four o’clock on a winter morning. I left the bike outside and went into the kitchen to get a knife, all like this, like something very natural. “
Casciari claims that he has never used cocaine since that episode. Photo: Gaspare Kunis
“While I was going to the kitchen I heard someone cough, I don’t know if my old man or my old lady. And then I thought about making a mess with these poor people. But not in an existential sense, but a mess of blood dripping everywhere. And with the same ease with which I was about to look for the knife, I turned around, turned on the light in their room and asked them for help, “he was honest.
“My old man was pale and didn’t understand anything. So I told him they would have helped me simply by saying that I was not there when someone came looking for me or called me on the phone. I also asked my dad that if I stole some money somewhere, he would give it back to me. That I would give it to her later somehow, “he added excitedly.
“This is how I lasted two months without leaving the house. It was like my automobile farm. I only took Uvasal, which was something that helped me. Then I went for about a year and a half as a backpacker. And I cleaned myself a lot by walking. I left thanks to my elders, “acknowledged Casciari.
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Source: Clarin
